”Twas the night before Christmas, but my mental health doesn’t give me a break, instead it just causes a riot and makes us irate.
‘Twas the night before Christmas and I’m trying to keep the magic alive, using my senses and counting to five. It’s no longer working, truth is it never really has. Everyone’s asleep and I’m back to overthinking, drowning in my thoughts and I feel like I’m sinking.
”Twas the night before Christmas and I know the sun will soon rise, I need to get myself together and gather my thoughts before the sun light shines. Soon enough I’ll be sourronded by family, they’ll expect me to smile and take in the Christmas spirit. Truth is, that’s far from my mind and my anxiety levels are far from the expectations of society!
”Twas the night before Christmas, and in mind Christmas dinner isn’t such a winner. Everyone else is desperate to taste the traditional Christmas dinner, so I’m sat here playing with my fidget spinner. I don’t want to be the centre of attention, I want to be with “Iesha” and not “The Girl With The Eating Disorder”, I’m fed up of calling to Anorexia’s every order.
‘Twas the night before Christmas and all the presents are wrapped, my money has definitely not been capped! As usual, I’m having anxiety about sitting in a circle and I know I can no longer hide behind my journal, it’ll be time to open presents and I just hope it all stays pleasant. I don’t want to join in the fun, I’d just much rather run.
‘Twas the night before Christmas and I really am trying to keep the spirit alive!
It’s the night before Christmas and it will soon be 2am, my house is silent and the darkness has sunk in. Staring at the ceiling and not revealing the tears that are falling from my eyes. Christmas is scary and I’m weary of what lies ahead. I’m shutting my eyes, because I know Santa will be on the look out for who’s naughty and nice! I’m asking for one thing, whilst you all celebrate in style this Christmas please be aware that someone around you could be struggling. However, please don’t make a big deal out of this fact, just be aware that you could be called upon for a shoulder to cry on! Mental health doesn’t stop for Christmas, in fact it can and most likely will get worse than usual.
I am wishing all my followers a Merry Christmas and a happy new year, thank you for following my journey so far and I will look forward to catching up with you all in 2018. Lots of pink and sparkly love, Iesha💖