Hi all! Welcome to my daily update page, I created this because I only tend to do one or maybe two big blogs a month. This way though, you guys can keep up with the craziness of my life, with my first update starting tomorrow (08.05.17). I’ll look forward to sharing with you all🙈💜
08.05.17- Welcome to my first daily update! Today has been a difficult one, mental health wise. I had to cancel on my girlfriend because we were both feeling unwell, which is rubbish because we had the perfect day planned… but all good things are worth the wait of seeing her on Friday! My PA has cheered me up though, I can just see it being one of those demon days and devil nights… For now though, it’s back to the uni work! Doing this to share with you all makes it easier though and I really hope I can help anyone the best I can! Stay strong💖
09.05.17- Today’s been even worse than yesterday and I didn’t even know that was possible! My mind is on overdrive and I’ve lost count on how many times I’ve cried! But, new blog is out now… so go have a look and enjoy reading! Tomorrow’s a new day💜
12.09.17- First off, I’m so sorry that I haven’t updated in so long! It’s been crazy, I have been in a day service for my Anorexia and Mental Health, although I’ve learnt that relapsing happens at least every other day! My mood has been so up and down, even today so I can’t really pin point a single emotion for you all. Although, I hope that you are all doing okay. If you’re not, don’t forget you can contact me on here, or other details are on the ‘Contact Me’ page. Sending lots of lots of love and positivity to you all💕
25.09.17- Again, I am so sorry I haven’t updated this page in so long! Life is a rollercoaster at the moment. But seeing as I’m blogging based on today, I can tell you that I feel pretty positive for once! I am sure it is because my cousin has started working with me as my PA, when I’m with her I feel like I can do this whole life thing, so near enough a whole week together is me getting my life back on track and being happy, so I am so thankful she took the job and I am so lucky to have her. As always, if any of you need me then please remember to go on the ‘contact me’ page… none of you are alone! Keep going strong and don’t let anyone dull your sparkle✨
27.09.17- I missed out yesterdays update, sorry! Today’s a really bad anxiety day, the worst in so long! I get anxious over replying to anyone today, the thought of going out later is a very difficult hurdle! I don’t really know what to do to now to make it better, life is just too overwhelming for me today. Panic attack after panic attack and I just have to keep going. Is it bedtime yet? Hope you are all having a much better day than me, never loose sight of the light at the end of the tunnel💞
01.10.17- not to be negative or anything… But, is it acceptable just to pretend that today never happened, that it’s all just a bad dream! I really hope tomorrow’s different and that you guys are all feeling a little bit brighter than I am. I’m going to hospital tomorrow anyway, so I’ll try my best to update you all on how it goes! New week, new start, right?💭
24.12.17- Call me a rubbish updater if you want, I’m so sorry for not updating this page! It’s been a mad few months, my mental health is my enemy and it’s really knocked me back to square one! Anyway, I wish you all a very merry Christmas and a happy New Year. I know Christmas can be a worrying time, I mean trust me my mental health is making me petrified for the celebrations ahead. Remember, my DM is always open on the “Contact Me” page. I will try my best to update tomorrow evening and I will look forward to writing my first blog for 2018, in January. If you want a little more insight into how Christmas can be for me, then please read my blog “Twas The Night Before Christmas…” Love from Iesha 💙
26/27.12.17- Hi my darlings, now I have a chance I can finally fill you in on some Christmas/ Boxing Day situations! All I can say is, I can’t believe I made it through this and I’ve surprised myself with how it’s gone. Don’t get me wrong there has been breakdowns and panic attacks to my friends, because I felt like I had lost all control and I couldn’t cope. But, my family have been amazing at keeping everything calm and doing everything they can to make sure I felt as comfortable as possible. Removing cutlery, not making a big deal out of anything and making sure I felt loved, meant the world to me! I’ve been spoilt rotten and felt really safe and special this Christmas and I really appreciate them not making a fuss over me not being able to eat Christmas dinner, However, I have been thinking about all of you as well and hoping that you’ve been in situations where you could deal with things too. No matter what I’m still proud of everyone and thinking positively, 2018 is just around the corner and it should be time for some good luck by now, right?! To anyone reading this, you’re all superhero’s to me, I’ll look forward to updating you on a few days! Stay strong💚❤️💚❤️
13.01.18- HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU ALL! I hope now that all the festivities are over, for another year, you can settle down into a fresh start in 2018! We’re two weeks in already and I feel like that’s absolutely crazy! I’ve really been struggling so far and I need to take some positive control again. Anyway, I will look forward to another year of writing and updating you all, as you continue to follow my journey. Here’s to the future my lovelies, I am so proud of you all!
02.2.18- hello you lovely lot! I’m sorry for not updated you in so long, I’m in such a dark place at the minute and will most likely get put into hospital for a psychiatric assessment. It’s the lowest I’ve been in SO long and I’ve forgotten how to cope if I’m honest. I’ll be back in a hurricane, sending love and positivity to you all! Thank you for your continued support💖
27.05.18- I am SO sorry I haven’t updated this page in so long! To say it’s been a rough few months is a massive understatement, I was also unsure if I should update after so long, but after an Instagram vote and a chat with my best friend, I decided I needed too. I have had new mental health diagnosis’ as well, but it’s too much to put into this page, so I will do a main blog based on it around July. Please remember that you can always message me, on the ‘contact me’ page if you need anything! Thank you all💛
21.06.18- Ever sit and wonder where life went so wrong? Ever sit and wonder why so many people around you, even your family decided to distance themselves or walk away? Ever wonder why life has a funny way of trying to show you why you should be in the world, because most of the time it gives you every reason to not want to be in the world? Ever wonder why you just don’t wanna be here anymore?! Here’s my honest answer based on my life… because my mental health takes over so badly that you are just constantly consumed by it, by that Anorexia voice, by anxiety so intense it makes you feel like you can’t breathe, by depression that makes everything in the world seem pointless, by that EUPD that turns you into an emotional wreck of a monster that you can’t control over something as little as a drop of a pen, over a past that will haunt you forever… I could go on forever!
HOWEVER, when all hope feels lost, YOU can help yourself. Now I bet you’re reading this thinking “yes Esh, every therapist and mental health professional has told me that. But it’s just so annoying so please shut up, because I am trying my best!” I get it, I know how frustrating it is to hear that sentence. But, I’m not on about magically following a meal plan step by step when you are already trying the best you can to do that, I’m not on about doing mindfulness if you don’t think it helps. I’m on about something like this… today, I started “Iesha’s recovery wall” on the back of my door. It’s the little things, just reading the quotes help me and can fill me with hope and inspiration that the emotion I’m feeling will eventually pass. It really helps me, just to physically see some quotes that look pretty when things are rough. I read them, I read them again, and I read them as many times as I need to.
I’m sharing this because if this idea helps someone else then I will feel like I’ve done something right. Stay strong and keep being that amazing warrior/warrior princess that finds a way to handle what you have so far and more! Your story isn’t over, in fact it’s only just begun!🙌🏻💭💚
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